Sober Reminders

She lies there in the hospital bed, surrounded by 5 other patients. Looks at me with her dark eyes above the neck brace, immobilized by the plastic holding her fragile bones in place, and she smiles, reaches out her hand for mine. And I see the pain covered with the smile and she says, "I'm okay."
And I hold back the tears, surprised--completely unexpecting the the seriousness of the injury because she texted me those same words, "I'm okay."
Is she really okay without Jesus?
The five minute conversation in Korean is broken down into a five second translation in English. She has a broken bone in her neck. She was thrown out of the car and knocked unconscious. And so many emotions rage inside of me. I feel her pain and think of the long month ahead in a drab hospital room with nothing to keep her occupied. I wonder. What can I do? What can I bring? She could have easily been taken from this world. She was spared. But she doesn't know Jesus. Have I been bold enough? How can I show the love of Christ? I'm often so ungrateful..that I can walk, breath, experience life to its full. So assuming..that tomorrow will come, that nothing bad could happen to me or one I love. So lackadaisical in living and loving the gospel to my co-workers, my students, my neighbors.

How can I love like Jesus loved? How can I savor the moment and breathe out thanks? How can I live with the lenses of eternity, changing my so earthly eyesight? Lord, only through you. I can't without You.

Mark 10: 27
"Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God."